I'm a 'ELASTIC' person which can be any shape like circle, flat and so on. From child until now never change. I live for what? Why I want to accept those afflict? I'm so tired. Don't want to/not willing to do/accept, I have to accept/do all that not from the Heart. No matter work, love... Then, I asked myself, "Where is my Heart?" Why I can do something that without the heart? MEANS Shell.
A friend asked me 'How do think about feeling?' Feeling, I'm the person who take feeling as important as anima She posted on her FB wall " i demand love, any love and i loyalty to my love" I like it. Should admit, I'm demand love, loyalty to my love too. So what,  no one will care about my feeling!!! Come as they love, Go as they like. Break my fragile heart.
I'm speechless!

My brother want to marry luu.. I'm going to busy ~ ~
happy things are coming....

But, I, myself not happy~
want to cry it out, ''' please...

want forthright to cry.

: ( 

Direction

I decided. No direction.
Pain...

warm N miss

13.05.11 12:15am

hey.. SEE, these are Sandy (AGSM) bought to me for supper. ^^ Warm yar~haha...

that is from my heart. I m very happy. She like my 'second mother', taught me many things, before I step in to the SLKL (the interview day), she had chatted with me a lot about the hotel, until i work, i want to resign and i transfered to another outlet. Even now, I have some plans. She cares me much like how is my feeling work in another outlet, why i m not happy and more.

So FuLL... (",)

At the same time, I miss somethings~

I miss McD, Choc Ice Cream, Egg Rolled, Noodle, Tou Fu Fa, Chic wings and so on~
Appreciate~

Dragon-I

Lunch with Shirmy and Jeff...

I like gather with them. comfortable, happy, silly ~ become close and closer with them (",)

Hope to gather with them along the life ^^

**Don't Disappear in my life in sudden~ Pls..

Lousy"

I had slept on bed for an hour,

but the eyes never close.

'couldn't sleep again' :(

I have made my life with lousy.

Hope somethings can turn back,

to allow me have chances to try.

To have a happiness home,

No argument.

i have friends

but not taking granted from each other's friends.

My chest pain, what happen?

never mind...

nothing can let me nostalgia..

nobody want to care about me~

\\It might be a Fate\\

Many people (especially ladies) said " there has no good man"...

But i said "got"

I saw many through my eyes ~

But, why i have no the chance to meet good man?

If no chance is okay for me...

the point is why i met and i chose are im not 'his' only 1?

what are the problems on me?

make you away me---

Enough~

i shouldn't take it.

This LOVE might not in my life... Fate~

Be abandon by...

No one can be trusted~

im sad.

i want to give up.

Just a Heart

finished work at 1130pm.

reached room at 12.10am.

he sent choc ice cream... at 1259am (5.4.11)

before he com, he had asked me " do u wan supper?"

actually i very hungry @@"... but i said "don't want."

signal on-- stomach~ keep 'ringing'

he delivered...

**march-->

8.3.11 : 2.00am ++ : noodle + tao fu fa + chic wings

9.3.11 : 1.00am ++ : McD

13.3.11 : 8.00pm ++ : noodle

16.3.11 : 1.50am : egg roll with seaweed and shredded pork

18.3.11 : 9.39am : McD

20.3.11 : 12.00am : fried dong fun

30.3.11 : 11.30pm ++ : "watermelon"

31.3.11 : 11.38pm : "melon"

this few days can't sleep well.

so tired. tired of my life...

so many things happen.

i need shoulder to let me lean, which with fully truly by his heart...

i cant control, want to drink~..

luckily to day OT...

if not waste money to do bad hobby.

i have totally no confidence on myself.

i scare when somethings on my hand will easily fly away.

even a person.

even he pay his love by his heart.

i scare~

this is the problem,

i know it will let him go,

cause of believable & unbelievable.

so tat,

i think that is one of the problem that i cant hold a person.

is it?

I ALWAYS say i don't want any promises.

but my heart need.

no gut to accept..

hurt so bad"

if you who love me...

hope you know & understand--- i need 'promises' actually.

when you promise-- from your heart PLEASE!

when i in thinking of grey~

few 'model' that had show me that:

"still got in the world.

they treat their family very well,

they treat their partner full of care,

they love 'her' so much,

Just A HEART... ^^

today, cant sleep too : (