how am i?

i recover~~~ good news yar... =)

But, 2pm ++ i sudden cry after dreamin~

im not happy v the dream...

y nobody care abt me, even my family~

i nid ur care... i less of concern ... =(

who care me?

insomnia

=( cant slp...

might hungry so tat Insomnia~ =."

finally, he had taken evrthin out of my room. i had deleted his phone number, messages, record of calls. in front of my eyes had no his things... tat s a gud start for me. i jz nid som time, a little bit of time to delete my memories--- remind** no matter happy or sad memories hav to delete, delete all happen tat include him. "Yc can do it, bliv myself".... i dont wan cry b4 i slp at nite evrtime, pls disappear asap... i dont wan cz of u, get out of the way jz bcz dont wanna take a chance to c u even a second, dont wan go cafe for meal b4 1730 bcz dont wan c u in cafe at the sam time. i can bck shang palace as i like, dont wan choose the day tat u r x in. tmr wil b las day tat i bck shang palace without u (off day). the followin day, evrthin on the top wont b happen... x bcz of u~ i wil add oil to Delete, Delete, Delete all memories abt u~

--- was i dream? las nite, did W cal me? like dream, but feel truthful... i think tat s a dream ba, cz i remember tat he said wil cal me today? but i din receive any cal from him.

--- tis few days has ignore many things n ppl... sry~ Giv me som time>>> i wil b fine soon~ wait me, YC bck...

sleepy, wanna slp le... nite...

talent//

along- actually im x happy... i noe force to b happy is more suffering... away~

god- whr is my dignity, whr is my feel of security, whr is my confidence, whr s d bliv, y im nobody, is it hv word "welcom to play" on my forehead, y who i met r not serious to treat n treasure wat they hv... y they can take lov as nth..

she said im easy to affect by, she said i hv x talent to play... think in tis few days, i agree tat im. i feel im x sav, wil get hurt in evrwhr, anytime. hw to express my sadness? =(

i wanna b alon, no matter hw long, i nid to awake tat i hv done... i hv lost many things... hv To find bck my dignity, feel of security, confidence, bliv N MYSELF~

trip~~

9 mar- 11 mar 11

^^

d trip is ok~

a time tat let me x think much,

but at d nite, cant control~

drink---

12 mar 11

^^

J0hor

steamboat- it vr ful -.*

drink again~

cz i heard abt him~

13 mar 11

pavillion-shang-the weld-clinic

14 mar 11

serdang- rest~~

15 mar 11

the gardens- mid valley- pavillion

"i hv bought a lot, spend over than my salary~~ OMG

but i hapi, i bought a watch >.<>

clothes,pants

N brunch-T v my lovely mummy~~ (",)"

K go to Taiwan~

had diner v him, but x nice ...

movi n he wanna KFC @@"

16 mar 11

nth to do...

i had eaten a box of egg roll v seaweed n shredded pork...

which s W send for me in 1.50am

W din reply my msg... somthin i x understand...

but W x wanna tel me...

did i hurt him again~

but i din say anythin~

("<)

wat s goin on?

should i cal him?

should i giv him a chance?

but i jz...

actually i stil mind myself~

family pro, lov pro, career start from 0..

damn--

"hurt so bad"

pain without tears...

YC

-b strong

-evrthin wil b ok

-find bck d confidence

-forget d pas, chase 4 future

-try ur best

-u r x alon, u hv ur family n fren(s)

bye bye~~