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何时会到那天的来临?
无须考虑丢弃意志力.
就算对不起，这是我的选择.
我最重要的东西已经不完美!!!
如果那天的来临,
那是我的选择"放弃"...

It's 430 early in the morning...
Can't sleep. It's a Insomnia heavily~

I don't know whether I very full? Chinese tea? somethings bothering me?
but I'm pain now... gastric? stomach ache? Don't know.

Almost 2 months didn't update my blog, nothing special happen in my life?
Many things cross to my life in these period actually.
My sister move and stay with me, No alone, share rental with me, I have saved a little of money.
Shirmy, had left shang for 3 months, nearly. I miss her so so so much. I have miss the chance to meet her (Gathering). I'm very sad~
I miss that when 5 of us gather to eat, drink, chit chat, play, Karaoke... be continue later, next day, in future?
"Someone" still like what and which I posted of the last blog. Will "someone" accept the special situation? I hope I everyone can accept me... I'm ... (How to let others know and understand?) Especially daddy and mummy... and you two.
I'm going to resign, but they still want to promote me as a Hostess. I'm a Hostess! I still follow my plan to resign  before He asked me to Extend... I don't know what should I do... resign as my plan? Extend? No Answer Yet. Analyzing...

... ... ... ...

paining,should rest, hope after this wil be OK.
~ this blog use half an hour (5am)~

I have worked in Arthur's for 2 months. In first, I'm really uncomfortable in new environment, new colleagues... But, now, I will miss Arthur's. Why? It's not like in Zipangu, want to run away. Even though, work in Shang Palace for 5 months only, I have the feeling "bu she de". But, the boss in Zipangu who is Mr. Yokokura, he treat me well. Wherever he went for a trip, he brought a souvenir for me. Like:

He brings to Arthur's for me. Haha...  And the Chocolates he ask Zipangu staff called me to take. :) 

Specifically leave for ME!!!

Besides, there has something happen in my life. Suddenly, S sms me, one day, keep calling me that he want to fetch me back after work... because he also just finished work. Then, asked me to accompany him to eat fast food. But, in the above, I didn't do even 1 thing. He is one of the person that I dont want to angry, but I can't forgive. Everything is past over, I don't like he send the "rubbish" to me. I just hope that, "You do the part that you should do, treat your GF well."

I'm very regret that I met you, I accepted you.

Further, "someone" appear in my life. "someone" never smoke in front of me, when "someone" saw me I was walking toward him, "someone" would throw away the cigarette. "someone" will keep check his mouth whether got smell "smoke" in his mouth or not. "someone" found me in Pavilion almost 1 hour. "someone" lied that his car parked near my house just because scare me walked back with alone (he knew it, cause i did before), but his car parked in the Pavilion actually. "someone" bought a drink which was  Jasmine with red bean to my room (I said that I want to try his friend open that the new drinks shop and I hope to have red bean inside), "someone" worry me back at the early in the morning (cause normally I finished work at 12am, 1am 2am and so on) he asked me to let him know when I reach the room. "someone" was waiting me finish work at 430am and after shower, touch up something at around 5am, then took me back (so long hours, and he work in the morning 7am, I think). "someone" asked me out for movie, but he sleep late (the movie not yet start to show) let me wait. "someone" would try to know me like my favorite/unfavorable. "someone" said that don't away too far, he want to easy to meet with me by face to face.    .... .... ....

"someone" is a friend, thank you so much... I won't know what will happen in the next few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years··· ··· May be you will continue to be my friend, May be you will be my partner. You treat me good, I will treat you well too.

Nov '11 22

I'm super happy that I got You (s). Thanks for the present(s) and celebrate with me. I love you all always. Hope won't throw my weaker heart away... Last night, I drunk, I cried. So sorry. 

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Wish myself "Happy Birthday 22"

I'm very very full now~ And happy. I like the feeling after my stomach is full. haha...         : )
But, It's make me miss the lunch that she cooked so so much. She bought a book for me which "Setbacks, is God's gift to you". I never read it. Don't know it can help me or not. YC 'see wide a bit'... Should I go to her hometown? I scare. I never go to anyone house for stay overnight. What's the decision? Lol... Will she wait me to tell her whether I go or not go?

I'm a 'ELASTIC' person which can be any shape like circle, flat and so on. From child until now never change. I live for what? Why I want to accept those afflict? I'm so tired. Don't want to/not willing to do/accept, I have to accept/do all that not from the Heart. No matter work, love... Then, I asked myself, "Where is my Heart?" Why I can do something that without the heart? MEANS Shell.
A friend asked me 'How do think about feeling?' Feeling, I'm the person who take feeling as important as anima She posted on her FB wall " i demand love, any love and i loyalty to my love" I like it. Should admit, I'm demand love, loyalty to my love too. So what,  no one will care about my feeling!!! Come as they love, Go as they like. Break my fragile heart.
I'm speechless!

My brother want to marry luu.. I'm going to busy ~ ~
happy things are coming....

But, I, myself not happy~
want to cry it out, ''' please...

want forthright to cry.

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